once again i've taken time for granted. i thought you would have had longer. i just think it was the thought of you. the way you laugh at how us kiwis pronounce words, the award winning hug you give to only me which stops me from breathing. made me think of all the good you do, have done, and were meant to do. i've never understood why the good people are treated like shit. you're quite possibly one of the most amazing people i know. and the thought of you suffering, and not being able to live life the way you imagined it hurts. i know i'll never let go of the memories we've had. getting drunk and stealing the signs from bp, watching spongebob in black and white. it's the little things that make me realise what means the most. i don't know how the world will survive without you. maybe you're needed somewhere else. you brightened everyones life, and at some points changed mine for the better. i have complete faith you'll get better. my mind and heart have deleted the bad news and the bad thoughts. i know i'm wrong, but i have complete faith that you'll get through this. you always do. i don't see how it could change now. bestfriends, no matter the time, distance or troubles. always.